I think I’ve mentioned before that I work nonprofit foundation where I get to help give away money to other nonprofit organizations. It’s a great job where I can usually avoid selling my soul, but it is still a job with plenty of bureaucracy and headaches (figuring out compliance issues with the IRS is tons of fun, let me tell you).
Anyway, once a year there’s a big conference where people with my job from all over the country get together to complain and figure out different ways to make our job easier. So today, I got an email from someone organizing next year’s conference asking if I would consider being a panelist. The conference is fairly large, about 500 people, and the session I would be apart of would probably be around 75-100 people. Oh, and they need to know my answer in a week.
My first thought was, Cool, resume builder!
My second thought wasn’t really a thought, it was just sheer terror.
Some of my fears of public speaking include:
Overhearing someone talk about how horrible I was.
I will get so nervous that I will freeze up.
Someone will inexplicably have an egg on them and throw it at me.
I’ll accidentally swear when I have some technical difficulty or something.
I’ll hear myself on the speakers and remember that I hate the sound of my voice projected and get really self-conscious.
As for the pros of public speaking, there is the whole resume building thing. There’s the off-chance that people might love me and proclaim my session the best thing since bottled beer. I can’t say money since I wouldn’t get paid.
So, what do you think? Should I do it?